So, one of the things I discovered over November that actually, one of the best things ever in my life, beyond my other half and kids of course, is writing. I’ve missed it so much lately, so I made an objective and obviously quite biassed attempt to quantify how it makes me feel. In short, very good.
The problem is, I still haven’t really gotten to a place where I can choose to do it full time. And even if I did, I don’t think I’d be happy – I do love writing, but I’ve got a very low opinion of myself and any area where I can criticise myself worse than the worst critics is not a safe place for me to be full time.
I’m not sure what the solution is, but the first step on the road to sorting it all out is getting on with some projects and getting my backside off Facebook quite so much. I’ve got an hour a day where I cannot be on my laptop and still be awake as the boi needs my rig to play Titanfall, so I’ll be on my iPad, and should be exclusively writing around then.
More than that though, I’ll be starting some projects I’ve been threatening for years and years. The Indie resource site that I’m going to try and blog on regularly, and hopefully attract others to do so, and a little lighter, StuffWritersNeed, a project designed exclusively to share the best ‘stuff’ I see for writers.
I’m going to go back and revisit some older blogs too and get on with them again, and I’m going to, as Chuck Wendig said, Finish my &**&.
In the short term, nothing’s going to change, but by next Nano, hopefully there will be a new world order. All I can do is take baby steps to the next place I need to be, and keep going. Writing is something I can’t *not do*, so I’m going to stop fighting it and go with the flow. If that means writing stuff I didn’t think I’d ever write, fine.
You may also notice the blog has been updated to another theme too – that’s an ongoing process, but I’m going to try and put the information that people want/need front and centre, without being all ‘buy me’ for books and stuff. But I’m also stretching my wings – one of which is into t-shirt design. I’ll talk about that more tomorrow 🙂
D Kai Wilson- Viola is a prolific and often intensely fun writer. Her favorite genres are Sci-Fi, where her Darkness series is set, Fantasy, where she writes up actual play from RPGs she never got to run, urban fantasy, mostly inspired by her bad idea bear (aka her partner, Tempus, and mental health advocacy, as she’s got a raft of diagnoses, none of them particularly pleasant, but none that tend to hold her down for long either
When not writing, and still *thinking* about writing often enough to get caught out, Kai can be found training with her beloved at the Ludosport Academy they belong to, hanging out with family and friends gaming, or enjoying exploring parts of the world they’ve got access to at the time.
A nature and animal lover, Kai is a writer because she has to, because she loves it, and because it’s fun. She is the mother of two cats, two adults and lives in the Cotswolds, UK, with her beloved.
“I do love writing, but I’ve got a very low opinion of myself and any area where I can criticise myself worse than the worst critics is not a safe place for me to be full time.”
I empathize completely. The busy day-to-day demands and never having enough hours to do everything I want to do can get overwhelming. Oh, if I could have those sleep hours to do it all!
Excellent personal-life article. You’re a great lady, an overflowing fountain of creativity. Trust in that if nothing else, and your dreams will come true faster than you imagine.